If I could…

I’d wish that time would stop. I don’t want to go back to the past… I don’t have any regrets, the choices I made makes me who I am today. I just want time to stop at that moment. Just stop and live enjoy it. Enjoy our halcyon days. But sadly, wishes don’t come true, well, not all the time. Time doesn’t stop. Time would move on, even if you didn’t. That’s how time is. We can’t change it. We just have to go with the flow. We have to move on.

Tell me, what’s with time? We spend most of our time thinking, waiting, rather then doing. How long are we going to wait? How long am I going to wait? What I longed for, will never happen. Maybe. I think I’ve given up on hope. Or maybe, hope has given up on me… Nah. I shouldn’t give up now. I know I shouldn’t. If I did, then I’d be a dreamer. Not an idealist. I have my dreams. I’ll just continue chasing them. Even if it’s so far away… I may have an occasional fall, but I’m sure, I’ll make it, someday… Hopefully.

Time, oh time. Why do we wait? How can our hearts be so content with waiting for others. Don’t you people ever get sick of waiting? I’m sick of it. Time, it seems as if you move slower when we wait. Is it because when we wait, we notice a great deal of detail? Quite possibly.

Humans are fools. When they are younger, they become slaves of emotion. As the grow older, they become slaves of money. Last, we become slaves of time. Just waiting… Waiting for our deaths. It’s gonna happen to all of us. The day that we wait for our deaths. Not for the ones who go earlier.

This shows that I shouldn’t wish for such things. Because such things would be a hindrance to everyone. If time would stop, then there’s no point in living. What’s the point of living in the same second, same minute, same year? Those halcyon days would mean nothing! Facing obstacles, that’s what we live for. That means, we should stop hoping for those dreams. Go realize them.

Like I’ve said so many times, anything is possible. And you’re probably thinking, ‘That’s easy for you to say, try doing it!’ Yes, I’m doing it. And I think I’ve stopped waiting now. I’m gonna make a move and do my part. I’m gonna make a difference. If I can help myself, I can help the world.

Good luck and goodbye.

PS. Sorry for the post. Like I said, I’ve been feeling a little under the weather.. And my brain isn’t working well for that. It’s like scrambled eggs.

Chim Chim Cher-ee

Chim chim-in-ey, chim chim-in-ey

Chim chim cher-ee!

A sweep is as lucky, as lucky can be

Chim chim-in-ey, chim chim-in-ey

Chim chim cher-oo!

Good luck will rub off when I shakes hands with you! 

I've been singing this wretched song for 2 hours now. Please, make me sing something else. IT'S DEVOURING ME. HELP MEEEEEEE. 
Oooh. There's a song named Help! 

Help! I need somebody. Not just anybody.. (And so on) 

A lot has been on my mind recently. Those things inside my head slowly pulling me into insanity. Also, I've been rather... Depressed, is it? Yeah, those damned things are making me rather depressed. In my head, I can make lines... Sad, depressing lines. Damn you self. I wish I'd stop. Well, just wishing isn't enough... I HAVE TO EARN IT! NOW, TIME TO GET RID OF THIS FEELING. WOHOOOOOO.

Yes, something's wrong with me. I need help. Seriously. Keeping it in all the time isn't good, ya know? I can express my feeling oh-so-easily to everyone but... It doesn't make it special anymore, get it? I'm not that close to the person I normally express my feelings to like I was. Maybe it's just like the telephone wires. Constantly expanding and contracting. Maybe that's how it's going on with me and that certain someone. Maybe I'm thinking too much. Maaaaybe.

That person is also one of the things on my mind. Maybe not person. MAYBE PEOPLE. Who knows? You gotta figure it out on your own. No way in hell am I going to tell you. x:

Friends do drift apart from each other... It's nothing unusual. There's a possibility that I'm the one who's slowly drifting apart. I get this feeling that I want to drift away. But at the same time, it hurts me on the inside. Maybe I've been listening to The Rolling Stones a little too much. Does it matter? Yes, yes it does. There sure are a lot of maybes on this post. Prolly 'caused by the song I was listening to.

So maybe tomorrow, I'll find my way home. 

That line is true. Right now I'm feeling lost and confused. So maybe tomorrow, I'll find my way home. Just maybe. It makes me wonder about who I am though. And what I want. I wish a certain someone would talk to me like we used to. Well, I can't just stay here and sigh about it. I've got to work for it too. If not. It's over.  I don't want it to be over, but at the same time, I want it too. Just... Don't leave me hanging. You'd be rather conceited if you think I'd be like this forever. Just waiting for that person. I wish I could, but I wouldn't want to waste my life. I've got better things to do. And...

I wanna get lost in a rock 'n roll and drift away...

That's how I feel about that person and I. No, when I think about this person, that song pops into my head. But it's true. When I talk to the person, I'd think about this too. We'll make it through, I hope.

January has come to an end, February is here.

Wohooo! It's February! WOHOOOOOOO!
I can't wait! YEAH!!! You know, I wonder what happened to me. Yesterday, my mood was pretty shitty. That's one thing for sure. God. Save me, please. I wish I had a hug.

You know, I have a new ambition!
To be.. Happy! Get it?
Well, if a teacher asks me, "What's your ambition?", I'd answer that. Then get a scolding from the teacher. "You do not understand the meaning of ambition." That's where the teacher would be wrong... If such things are said. Ambition is something you want to be. I know what I want to be... Happy! I'd rather be a happy fool then a sad successful person.. (financially)

Hm. Today's post consists of mainly crap. Sorry. We played badminton today. I sucked. xD
Is it my fault that I can't play? Yes, yes it is. There's  an improvement... I can hit the shuttlecock. Wohooo! I CAN SURF! WOHOOOOOOO! Surfing's hard. But I'm not that good at aiming. Yeahh.

Once again, sorry for the horrid post. I just wanted to post something on this day. It's a very speshul day. ;D

It was a pleasure staying with you…

But now, it is time for us to part. GOODBYE MY FELLOW CLASSMATES. I do wonder why they say it’s… [insertclassnamehere]-ans. It just doesn’t sound right, ya know? There are so many that you can use… Argh. Screw you people. Do what you want. It’s not my problem. Actually, it is…
But… I don’t want to obfuscate the oh-so-kind and gracious people.

We’ve been together for two years, but now, some of us have to part. It’s a decent memory. One that lingers in my mind. I’m very sure that I’d remember you people until the I’ve breathed my last breath. Or maybe I’d forget this memory by noon. Hahahah. That’s not possible. We don’t actually forget things. It’s still in our brains…. Just hidden somewhere.

WHO YOU GONNA CALL!?

GHOSTBUSTERS!

Man. I'm dreaming about GB... I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE THIRD ONE! WOHOOO! 2012! WOOO! VIDEO GAME! I'M GONNA BUY IT. THE ORIGINAL VERSION! AND SAVE MONEY FOR A PS3... To see how it looks like there. xD

WHEEEE !

Ghostbusters!

I want the DVD/CD/Blue-Ray disc. 

Lost in confusion.

You know something, just now, in class, we had this... Counselling session. More or less, because the counselor asked us to do an activity. That activity was to draw our palms, and then write our characteristics. This task was meant to be for two parties. One was the owner of the palm, and the other was their friends. It was kinda fun.. I always wondered what people thought of me.

But the thing is. I have no idea who I really am. So tell me, how would they know?

I'm the kind of person who acts happy even if I'm not... The likes. Aside that, I think I'm a horrible person. I like to observe and analyze. I'm very critical. I like to argue. I like winning too. I'm very arrogant. I might as well be a narcissistic person. I lack the vain part, though.

I don't want to change. I love who I am. Well, I love my personality. That's very narcissistic, isn't it? Proves my point.

The other thing I'm confused about is..

Am I abnormal?

I've gotten several comments that state I'm a particularly odd person. I'm not insulted. But it makes me think... What is this "normal"? Why don't I have that trait? Being different is good, isn't it?

Certain things that everyone else have seems very... Interesting. I think, I lack the understanding of human emotion. No, that's wrong. I've been studying that. What I lack is.. Realizing them. I'm probably too caught up in understanding it, that I neglected my own! Maybe. Who knows? There's a possibility that I'm NATURALLY like that. We'll see.

Now I'm not sure if I'm confused or not.

Bai bai.

It's October, bby!

It's October.. You know what that means, don't you?

It's the month!

October seems to be a depressing month for me. Ugh. Maybe it's because it's OCTOBER.

Possibly.

WHO KNOWS?

I know I don't!

And yes, this entry is a failure, you don't have to tell me.

I just can't bring myself to write an entry with my thoughts in it!

Maybe it's because I don't like sharing them.

But does it matter?

I think not.

We'll just see how long I can hold it in..

I'll be back in a couple of months.

Muy'uk~

Au revoir!